My Journey

Posted by Margaret at 10:58:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

Reading blogs, for me, has always been about support, learning & motivation as well as a great way to have a laugh and to share a tear. And sometimes it is not even the post itself that sets of a light bulb moment, but a series of off-tangent thoughts that occur because of it. Take this post of Katey's for example. In it she stumbles across some old ww'er books and removes them (very ingeniously by the way) from her house as this is not the tool that she is choosing to use in her quest for better health. And as I was silently applauding her for her actions I started thinking that I had some old books lying around and went hunting.

A friend had given me her weeks 1 - 12 booklets when she moved across to Sure Slim and I have to admit that in the past year and a bit I haven't looked at them very often and never at length. But on Friday I went through each one, page by page and started recalling my excitement when I first began back in April 2005. I looked at the ways to move more (most of which I am doing) and how to fill up a day full of healthy foods without feeling hungry (most of which I had forgotten or become too lazy to do!). I also stumbled across a recipe for Mushroom Cream Pasta. It sounded delicious so I wrote up a shopping list and on the way home bought the ingredients to make it. It was so easy. Whilst the boys were eating their dinner I made mine, made a salad, poured a glass of wine and sat at the dining table and had a great meal. I perhaps mis-measured the chilli and will take better care next time but it was great. This kick started a whole weekend of planning. I got my walks in on Saturday and Sunday, I did housework, I played with the boys, I went out on Saturday night (and had a FANTASTIC time. Am so glad I was given a cab charge as the fare home was $65.00 !!) and I made a shopping list for Monday morning for my weeks worth of food at work.

That didn't stop me putting on 400gms over the last 2 weeks though so I am tackling this week beginning at 77kgs. I am neither happy nor sad at this weight, just disappointed that I let a bit of lazyiness set me back a few weeks. AND I have noticed that when I put weight back on it all sits on my stomach. Everything else still looks OK but I feel bloated, I feel sluggish, and I am not as 'flat' (not that I will ever be flat LOL) as I was a couple of weeks ago. So armed with my weeks exercise plan, my determination to get excited again, and complete faith that I will get there, I am ready to move forward.

And to help me with that I have joined Paulene's new 12 week **Spring Slimming Challenge**- and whilst I initially thought I would not put my name in due to my 2 dismal performances previously, I have done so now, and I am setting myself my own personal 12 week goal of losing 5 kgs. It won't be easy, and I am not going to jump of the Harbour Bridge if I don't make it (not unless they strap me onto a Bungy Cord anyway LOL) but it is something I am seriously going to work towards. There is heaps going on in my life at the moment, but there always will be and I can't sit around and let every one of these things become the excuse of mucking around my good habits.

Hmmm that's a thought. What are my good habits? I shall ponder this and make it the subject of another rivetting post ;D

Posted by Margaret at 10:49:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

Serves 1 @ 6.5 points each

Ingredients

4.5 100g tagliatelle or fettuccine
0.0 75 g buttom mushrooms, sliced
0.0 1 small clove garlic, finely chopped
0.0 1/4 tsp chopped red chilli
1.5 1/2 cup light evaporated milk
0.0 2 tsp cornflour
0.0 1/2 tsp water
0.0 1 tbs chopped parsley
0.5 2 tsp grated parmesan


Method

Cook pasta until al denta.
Meanwhile, lightly coat a non-stick frypan with cooking spray and add mushroom. Cook until soft. Add garlic and chilli and cook for 1 minute. Add milk and heat until it bubbles. Combine cornflour with water and add to mushroom mixture. Bring to the boil and stir until thickened.

Stir through parsley and season with salt and black pepper. Drain pasta and toss with sauce. Sprinkle with parmesan and serve with salad.


My comments

I added a bit too much chilli and completely left out the parsley (oops). It was still yummo. I used a whole packet of pasta (500g) so upped the whole recipe to cook for 5. Then proceeded to eat nothing else for 2 days.


A photo

I have one but cannot load it..

Posted by Margaret at 10:34:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

** Long post warning **

My post tonight is going to be a little disjointed. Which is probably fitting as that is how I am feeling of late. Not disjointed as if I had been drawn and quartered in some medieval torture routine but just that I feel like a lot of things are going on in my life, and in the lives of others, and sometimes I feel I have too many thoughts in my head and they get so jumbled that I need to put them all down and get them in order. Not all of them are bad, in fact some are brilliant - anyway here goes.

My life is generally very good. Mark and I both work and get paid well for our time. This puts us in a very lucky category. However over the last few years we have been living every so slightly above our means and it is all catching up with me. I like to have certainty and whilst I can happily live with a controllable debt, when it gets too high I start to panic. I worry about what would happen if I lose my job - or worse if Mark were to lose his. We have ourselves locked into a couple of things we can't change readily (rent, leases etc) but I am working through the smaller things to slowly build up a snowball effect of paying off debt and whilst it is still in the infancy of planning I can see that we can work our way out of it. It will take some changes to our (and by this I mean HIS) spending habits but if we can lock in an agreed budget and make it flexible enough to still have some fun but focus on debt reduction I think we can do it without turning into a couple of Scrooges.

**Edit** Had to remove my 'secret spy' story as may have unwittingly caused some problems. Oops. If you took down the details and are going to follow it up please don't use my name and please don't say that I put it on the internet. Silly me.

I am also looking at being the local Avon lady. LOL. No seriously. There is no one in my area doing it as far as I can tell and after discussing it with Mark last night we have worked out a plan of walking on the weekend that will allow us to do deliveries etc. I have sent in an email requesting a phone call and information and it has almost been 24 hours (their promise of reply) and so far no phone call. So I may still back out of this one but my Mum used to be an Avon lady when I was at school and from memory she made pretty good money. So there is nothing to lose by making a phone call.

AND I have scheduled in a date to go to the Blacktown Trash & Treasure (which runs every Sunday) to offload a heap of stuff. In the past everything we have grown out of, tired of, needed to make some space from etc we have donated to charity. Which is cool. And probably still my preferred option, but I think that it could be because I am too lazy to organise to do something myself. We don't have a garage or a suitable front space to have a garage sale and the markets around my way charge an absolute bomb to have a stall. I am hoping by culling the childrens toys that they have grown out of and the piles of other collections I will be going a long way to decluttering the house as well as adding a few dollars to the debt reduction project.

AND all the while I am working on trying to find something I am passionate about (there are many things) that I can turn into a work at home business (the options dwindle here) so that I can balance working, being a mum, organising school pickups and drop offs, housework, everything. I will work something out and luckily have a few people who have gone that road before me to bounce ideas off. We shall see.

There are other things too that have gone a long way to driving me crazy lately. (sorry if I repeat anything I have previously discussed)

Back in February I accidentally transferred some money via the internet to a wrong account. I know who the money went to, the banks confirm the recipient says they got the money, my initial phone calls seemed to suggest they would pay me the money back and then it all went pear shaped. I went through the official bank track and trace and the recipient chose not to reply. I engaged a lawyer to have the money returned. The lawyer sent a letter to the recipient. No response. We have now signed court documents and a hearing will be set for the next few weeks (I think). If the recipient does not turn up we automatically win our claim and our costs. If they then still don't pay the court ordered amount we will be sending in the receivers. How much money did I transfer? $1340.00. Not a huge amount but not one I am prepared to let go. I am just thankful that the lawyers don't want any money until after settlement and that Mark can get the receivers to go in for free. I just can't understand the stupidity of the woman who got my money. We know who she is, she knows we know who she is, we have had dealings with her in the past (which is why her account details were in my online banking) *sigh* It really frustrates me.

Which leads me to my next gripe LOL. As you know I have been a busy little bunny and have finally completed my tax and my Child Care Benefit (CCB) bulk claims for the last 3 years. Whoo Hooo I am thinking. I will get some money in and really kick start this debt reduction thing as well as buying a couple of 'essential' items. (shoes ARE an essential item LOL) Last Friday I received a rejection letter on my claims stating that the Family Assistance Office (FAO) had no record of the children ever having been in an approved child care. WTF!!. After numerous phone calls (which I have to say were the most polite & helpful calls I have had with Centrelink / FAO. They were brilliant and I am so impressed with them) it turns out that I have done everything correctly on my forms but because the Child care centre has failed to put in utilisation reports for my children they rejected the claim. The good thing is once the child care centre does it I will get my money. The bad thing is the horrible woman from the gripe above used to be the child care centre owner for the first two claims. She has now erased all her records and I can't get this information from her. The FAO said they have sent her a letter and a form to fill in but if she doesn't, it means we will have to go to some arbitration with Centrelink to see if I can get my money. *bugger bugger* As the money involved is approx $800 - $1200 for the two years it is something worth fighting for. AND in order to claim the 30% Child Care Rebate in my tax this year, I need to have the CCB statement for the 2004/2005 financial year complete. *sigh* lots of silly little things to think about.


Anyway


I have also been doing lots of fun busy things. Oscar is having his soccer party in 3 weeks. The same weekend as the City 2 Surf. We have made the piñata (which looks sensational by the way). Darcy & Oscar helped me stuff it with little bags of lollies and little toys. The goodie bags have been filled. The games are almost complete. I will take photos as I made a game where I drew a soccer goal net on a huge piece of cardboard. I then blew up a photo of Darcy and Oscar and put it in the front as if they were the goalies. On the day the children will get little soccer ball cut outs and like "pin the tail on the donkey" they will get spun around and try to get their ball in the goal without touching the goalies. It is hilarious. Doing this stuff has been good for me as it gives me a chance to sit and unwind and concentrate on something that is a lot of fun.

Last Saturday I met up with Mary and Cath to do our Ferry walk. We headed off from Circular Quay at 8:12 and headed into Neutral Bay. As none of us had looked at the map it was a bit hit and miss with the direction we walked but we worked it out in the end and stumbled across some beautiful homes and little hide away wharves. About half an hour in the sky opened up and we got hammered. We stopped at Cremorne rather than continue to Mosman and waited for the Ferry whilst Cath entertained us all with her skipping prowess. It was incredible ;D Topped off with a decadent breakfast it was a great morning and the only highlight of that weekend which was then overtaken by the cold monster who crawled up my nose. Charming LOL.

This Saturday I am going out. By myself. To a party. Whoot. ;) One of the girls from work who moved to WA early last year, is coming back for her 30th. I really miss her and we speak almost every day on the phone so I am looking forward to putting all the crap behind me for the night and just having fun. I am hoping that the snot monster (who is subsiding by the way) would have vacated the premises by then and allow me to relax without having to take a trailer load of tissues with me.


Anyway


I have noticed on a few blogs lately that the old checklists have come back in again. The plan for exercise for the week and marking them off as they are done. This is a brilliant idea and one that I am now going to steal. I am finding that I am doing my walk in and out of the city. And now my lunch walk to the post office. Along with my incidental walking this is getting me to the region of 15,000 - 17,000 steps a day BUT I have to put my hand up and say that some of it should not really be considered exercise. I am not pushing my heart enough. I don't sweat enough. I have stopped doing any sort of resistance training. So I am going to have a look at my schedule, and my stuff (again!) and work out a plan for the next week. Then I can update it as I do it, or modify it as life steps in and forces changes. I think I need to have a plan to work towards as it is becoming increasingly easy to do nothing.

That being said a look over my Global Corporate Challenge has thrown out these interesting facts. Over 63 days I have:
Walked 1,042,400 steps. Yep that is over ONE MILLION steps !!
Averaged 16,546 steps per day
Walked 667 km's. This is based on a fixed 65cm gait where mine is more naturally 75cm to 85cm when striding.
Provided 17.25% of our teams total.

I know a lot of us are walking/jogging/running this amount of steps a day but to track it and see the numbers climb is really a buzz. I think after the challenge is complete I will continue to track it and see if I can do a month on month challenge of increasing my average - even if it is only by 1 step :D


*** deep breath ***


Wow. You might all be bored stupid by now but I feel so much better. Thank you.

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And before I go I wanted to let you all know about a new Australian company launched last Friday. The Organic Baby Food Company Ltd is the brainchild of a friend of mine and her sister and they have been working their tails off to get it off the ground. They launched at the Organic Food Expo to great interest and have now launched their website. The aim is to have the food ready to order on line from September, and in stores such as David Jones, Harris Farms and others early in the new year. If you want to keep on top of the news coming from this site regarding foods available, stockists, or you want to put forward a stockist you think should stock the range, please go to the site and register yourself as well as taking the time to have a look around. It is great to see someone who is passionate about what they believe in and providing a product that has been requested by the consumers.

Posted by Margaret at 6:33:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

As I sit surrounded by an ever growing pile of gunk filled tissues, and the colour of my nose resembles that of a strange flying antlered beast, I thought I would quickly write and say sorry for my lack of both posting, and reading and commenting lately. This week I am doing my own job at work and also acting as a PA for a big cheese so am busy and finding it hard to catch up on bloglines. After work is taken up with cajoling resisting children to go to bed, taking drugs, and falling in a stupour on any soft suitable surface in the house.

I am fine, just feeling a bit sorry for myself, but ever hopeful that this will pass in a couple of days and I can get back to a more normal routine. (is my life ever normal LOL)

Keep well, keep moving, and I'll do a HUGE catch up in the next couple of days. xx


Congratulations to Missy Vas on the birth of Lila Marie

Posted by Margaret at 9:13:00 am | Permalink

Friday
I love it when:

The air is so cold that when you walk in the morning you get ruddy red cheeks and your eyes sting but you feel so alive.

I go shopping at lunch and try on a gorgeous skirt in a size 12 and I love it, but it is too big, so I put it back.

I decide to buy sexy lingerie instead of a skirt and get some great Elle Macpherson Intimates - red & white (goes with all my red stuff!)

The house is tidy and smells of roses and I can walk all the way from the front door to the back door without tripping over one toy.

I can say I have finally signed off on 9 years of tax, 3 years of Child Care Benefit, and officially enrolled Darcy in school - whooo hoooo.


Saturday
I love it when:

We go shopping as a family and the whole day is fun and we all come home with balloons.

I show Mark the skirt I wanted to buy in a different store, and they have a size 10 available to try on. And it FITS. (And so what if I had to wait 15 minutes for someone appropriate to come and strip the mannequin of the skirt. I wanted it and I wasn't taking no for an answer LOL)

I drop the boys off at a friends for babysitting (so I can wear my new clobber out) and they wave bye bye and don't cry or make a fuss.

I receive compliments from people and they are genuine - and yes I thought I looked hot too ;-)


Sunday
I love it when:

I get home after a great night out with 3 sleeping boys and remember to wash off all my makeup before I hit the pillow.

The boys throw tantrums all day because they didn't get enough sleep the night before (well I don't love it but it is a great reminder that we are all together)

I have paper mache up to my elbows as I set about making a soccer ball piniata for Oscar's birthday. Crafty stuff is so much fun. And messy LOL.


Monday
I love it when:

I get on the scales for my weekly weigh in and I lose 200gms. Yaaaay. Now 76.6kgs and inching closer to that goal.

I look over the last 12 weeks as Paulenes 12 Week Challenge draws to a close and see that I have lost 2.2kgs. It may not be much but it is in the right direction and I am very happy with that.

I know that tonight I can sit in front of the p.c. and catch up on all my blogland buddies :D


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Event notification

We are doing a walk on Saturday morning (22nd July) meeting at Circular Quay at 8.00am. We are going to catch the 8:12am ferry to Neutral Bay and then proceed to walk to the Mosman wharf. Approximately 2 - 3 hours. Then catch the ferry back to Circular Quay. All are welcome.

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Around the blogs

My heartfelt sympathies go out to Emily & Jonny today who lost their baby at 16 weeks over the weekend. It is so incredibly sad. *hugs*

If you are planning to go to the c2s dinner and have not yet notified Mary, please do so in the next couple of days so we can lock in our booking - cheers.

Shiny Ruby is looking for people to sign up for a 2 hour hula hooping lesson in the city. It should be a tonne of laughs so if you are in Sydney and want to give your hips a bit of a workout head on over to her blog and let her know of your interest.******

Happy Birthday Daddy *mwah*

Posted by Margaret at 10:54:00 am | Permalink | Comments

I have just been advised of a job vacancy in the city. It is not with the company I work with but is for the company my DH works for. If you are interested in getting more information, or putting forward your details please send me an email and I will forward it onto the relevant party.

Please note this is no guarantee of a job. But if you are interested what do you have to lose?

Location: CBD - near Wynyard
Hours: Standard Business
Job: A shared P.A. type of role
Functions: Typing correspondence from dictaphone, standard typing, some phone work, basic secretarial / P.A. type roles.
Salary: Current incumbent who has left was somewhere in the region of $40 - $50 but that is something you would need to discuss as that is 3rd hand information only
Required: Urgently (they have been left in a hole with the girl who left)

So, if you are interested, flick me your name and contact email address (via email) and I will pass them on.

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I will be back for a more 'me' related post tonight :D

Posted by Margaret at 3:02:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

If I was doing a letter of the alphabet today to describe where I am I would have to pick the letter 'o'.

Overwhelmed:- It seems that at the moment I am overwhelmed by a lot of things. There is so many 'big picture' things going on - the housework, finances, weight, schooling for the boys, that I am in a constant feeling of "will it ever all just be alright?" and that feeling has made me feel a little strange this week.

On my own:- Even though I have a lovely family there are times lately that I feel like I am on my own, and everything needs to be done by me. This is frustrating to me and I feel like sometimes I would be better off by myself so that I don't rely on other people to do things. But I know I don't mean it and I always feel guilty afterwards for thinking like that.

Old:- I never thought I would ever say these words but I feel old at the moment. I think it is because of the other two "o's" but I am starting to feel my age. (I am ONLY 37!)

Honesty:- (well it sounds like it could start with an 'o'). After having a wonderful chat with a friend from over the equator I thought long and hard about honesty and what it means to me when I apply it to myself. I feel that I am not always honest to myself. And I am not honest by omission. If I am being less than I need to be, or I feel less than I think I should be, I disappear and don't write. (And in real life I go quiet). I can be supportive of others but I am far less supportive of myself. What a strange existence this is to live in. So I decided to be honest and admit to myself that I am overwhelmed at the moment and set a plan of action in place to tackle it. Being scared of the big picture is very normal and what I need to do is break it down into little pictures and tackle each one, one at a time.

Housework: Tackle one room at a time before the inspection on Friday. We will not be evicted because there are some toys on the floor or because the toilet paper rolls the wrong way.

Finances: Tackle one credit card at a time - don't think about the sum total (even though I could probably buy a couple of great small cars with it)

Weight: Well I have broken the back of this one but I need to focus on each week and not think about birthdays, anniversaries (10 years this year), Christmas etc. It will come when it comes.

Schooling: Accept that it is still going to cost an arm and a leg to have Darcy in before and after school care and trust that I will be able to work out a way to pick him up before school locks him in for the night (I am having nightmares about this already and he doesn't start till February)

On top of it:- Today I stepped on the scales and it has shown me a loss of 300gms. Whoo Hooo. So I am finally out of the 77's with a jump to 76.8kgs. I had a good week. Not a perfect week, but a good one so I am happy that I know there is still room for improvement, but that there was room for a loss as well. This sent me to work in a great frame of mind and during my lunch time walk today I broke a personal best record and jogged 6 light poles. Go me :). I think I may start timing these little runs and start with a time and build up from that from now on. Thinking about it the run was probably not more than 2 minutes in total so I have a very good base to build on LOL.


Global Corporate Challenge
I can't believe it is 47 days in and our team has walked over 4.5 million steps. Incredible! We are currently in Germany and visiting places I remember fondly when I was there in 1992 & 1999. This came hot on the heels of drinking my way through Italy and visiting all the wonderful islands in Greece (though the challenge only - have not been there in real life). Ahhh it is warm in Europe today. 30 degrees. I can just feel it...... Which helps when trying to work out how to keep the teams motivation up. We have slipped out of the top 50 overall and are only just managing to stay in the top 10 for our company. I have sent a suitably witty and hopefully motivating email to the team so we will see what happens this week.


Things I did well this week
I did not drink alchohol (even though I could have murdered a bottle of bourbon)
I kept up my walking even though I felt quite unwell for most of the week
I finally decided on a theme for Oscars birthday and I have sent out the invitations.

Things I will do better this week
I will not eat pizza.
I will not eat pizza.
I will relax and not look at the bigger picture this week.

Posted by Margaret at 4:18:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

OK. After a bit of post drinking, eating my weight came in this morning at 77.1kgs which is a loss of ANOTHER 100gms. As I looked at the scales I thought that I could get really cross or be really happy. I choose happy. Happy that it is a loss. Happy that at this rate I will be able to save up and afford a new wardrobe by the time I need to buy more clothes LOL. But if it decided to drop away quickly, I would be happy with that too.

Yesterday was not the quiet recovery day that I would have hoped. With swimming lessons scheduled in at 8.30am there is not much chance of a sleep in so it was up and all cylinders blazing early. And it was OK. Having crawled into bed at 9.30 the night before and having made sure I had heaps of water to drink minimised any hang over I may have suffered. However, as the day dragged on and my boys decided that this was the day they were going to argue, fight, not listen, not sleep, play loudly, I became more and more tired. I just prayed they would go to bed early and stay asleep. I should have kept my thoughts shut. Mr Oscar decided he would not settle at all but after some investigation I realised that his 2 year old molars are coming through which explained the entire days behaviour. Long story short (really - is this short!!) I ended up sleeping the entire night on the trundle with him and now have an extremely sore neck to show for it. It would have been ok if he just slept the entire night, but he constantly either touched my face to feel if I was still there or he would get up on his arms and legs and put his face right above mine and look into my eyes. Which was ok until his brain made the connection then he fell asleep again causing his head to crash into the bridge of my nose. *ouch*

But that is what happens when you have little wee bairn…


Global Corporate Challenge
There were a couple of personal challenges I set myself within the official one. One was to walk over 15,000 a day and other than a few notable exceptions I have done this, and the second is to make sure that my average for each month is higher than the month before. In May my average was 14,081 and in June it was 16,997 so I have a task ahead of me but I think I can do it. By October it may start getting a bit difficult but I won't know until I give it a go.


What I did well last week
I had 3/7 perfect days
I had a brilliant week socially
I drank a good amount of water

What I will do better this week
I will plan for post drinking days better
I won't drink alcohol this week
I will spread out the housework so I am not doing it all on Friday night

Posted by Margaret at 6:48:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

In November 2003 I went to the races with my friend Mel. It was the Nivea Visage Ladies Day at Rosehill and I was so excited about going out. I hadn't been out in a long time and we had decided we would get glammed up. But that raised an interesting problem for me. What do I wear? I was at probably my heaviest (but had not yet realised it) and literally had nothing except for jeans, trackies and my uniform. None of which would suffice for a day out. So off shopping I went. Full of excitement and hope that I would magically tranform into a chic magical creature. It was not to be. I did find a reasonably attractive outfit made up of a straight, long length chocolate brown skirt and a sheer white shirt. They were both purchased from TS14+ and a size 16 which meant in real terms they were a 20. I was heartbroken and bought a fancy, expensive, brown fascinator (those things you wear on your head at the races that are not hats) with feathers and fluffy bits everywhere so that the attention was not on my body. Suffice to say there are not many photos of that day that I would be happy sharing, even though the day itself was an absolute blast, but here is one of my favourite. (yes the colour pink featured heavily on that day too!)

(Blogger won't let me insert suitably hideous photo)


Fast forward to Saturday 1st July 2006 and Mel and I are back at the races for the "Pink Day". It was hysterical and I had a brilliant time. We sauntered in through the members entrance "???" and wandered around about half an hour before official opening time. During this period we chatted to all the staff we bumped into and snagged ourselves a couple of free hot pink feather boa's. It was a glorious day and our table in the sun was just was I needed to let the cares of the world go by and just enjoy the spectacle that is a day at the races. We bet small, drank big, and laughed and chatted the whole day. The day had a few highlights. One was when Mel went off to the first aid centre to get a bandaid for a fashion injury (a blister LOL) and came back with goodies. A sparkly pink hat with bright pink hair attached, and a huge pink afro for each of us. I tried mine on for good measure (a picture of which is in the previous post) and fell about laughing. It then stayed packed away until I was picked up by Mark where I proceeded to wear it all the way home. :D





A second highlight was meeting David Hyliander from The Biggest Loser. I had seen David earlier in the day but actually met him in the bar when buying our last drinks for the day. We chatted for a while and had our photo's taken and several big hugs were exchanged. I think we were all a little pickled by then LOL. It was great talking to someone who has a high profile and hear about his life and how things are going now that he is not on the show every day. As he is now the official face of BetaLife I am sure we will be seeing more (or less) of him in the near future.



This day was so different in the way that I felt about myself and how I looked. I don’t have a great full length shot but will take one another time but I felt confident, and it showed in the way I interacted with people and how I felt the entire day. Not once did I look at another person, wistfully thinking "I wished I looked like that". Even when the filly in the red and white polka dotted dress took her breasts for a walk past my table and the stallions all ogled her and didn’t even give me the once over, not even then. :D

Posted by Margaret at 6:36:00 pm | Permalink | Comments

I am way too tired to do a halfway decent post now and the numerous Red Bull Vodka's and bubbles and bubbles of (cheap) champagne are now playing a merry tune in my head. And for some strange reason the tune of "Send in the clowns" is resonating loud and clear.

Oh - maybe this is why


More tomorrow

*crawls off to bed*

Posted by Margaret at 9:27:00 pm | Permalink | Comments